Today is the day. | elwing's Blog

 At 10:15am this morning, I'll be taking Deucalion in for his final vet visit. After this, there will be no more pain, no more abscesses, no more cancer... 

Am I doing the right thing? He's not getting better, and I feel like if I have him put to sleep, I'm condemning him to death... But if I keep taking care of him, as he is, there's no way he's getting better. I'll be condemning him to have a painfilled life, to die in pain. 

The vet clinic says they won't let me be with him when they do it. That worries me. I hafta make sure the vet will do it right. With small animals like rats, euthanization requires a direct injection into a major organ, which is painful. I have to make sure they anesthetize him first.

I hate myself right now...